time flies. really. cliched as it sounds, the only reason y it is sounds cliched is cos so many ppl use it, and the reason y so many ppl use it is simply cos it is true, and they lack the originality and creativity to cook up something that reflects that statement.

The past few days came and went, with orientation dry run 2 being somewhat dry, given how it is more theoratical than practical, listening to one briefing after another. Yet, because of the very nature of the company present, it makes the entire 2 days+ somewat bearable =)

and on the last day (which is the + day) haha where we jus listened, it also happened to b the eve of christmas! like WOW! haha. nothing much happened except tt i caught up wif sj, nash, alan, ccc, zee after such a long time of being involved in work. and it does feel good to jus sit down and crap. haha. went ard bugis and ccc led us on some kind of walk ard bugis - probably his idea of some exercise tt all of us desperately need. haha. ok kidding. nothing spectacular but a way to spend the day. and a good way =) it was jus walking ard the mall and then sitting down to enjoy my sea of gold for me. and of course photo-whoring shamelessly and talking loudly. haha.

i havent exactly celebrated christmas much all these years. and after such a long time, u begin receiving cards and gifts ... haha. it is rather fun. it is good to both give and take i suppose, haha. but i do like reading the messages ppl hv written for me, jus as much as i had enjoyed writing mine for others. undoubtedly, my cards were written and bought in a rush, due to the fact tt i had no idea christmas was so near then, but at least i did send the cards to ppl hu i wanted to write to so there! haha.

but indeed, it was thru the cards that i received that i realised tt it is always the little things u do that make some ppl remember. and it can b astounding really, to realise how these things make a difference to a person u noe and hv interacted with.

christmas was filled with eating and sleeping, lazy me. but i worked too, how loseristic of me - completing those proposals, but at least i finished them! and then today's boxing day is filled with the buying of clothes, out of which most were jus tops ... i think i m spending too much. =(

----------------- Disclaimer: The paragraphs below consitute of mainly thoughts to round up the year so u might not want to read them unless u r o so bored

so 2005 comes to an end in a week. and u begin to jus sit back and think abt the year. and compare it to the many years before this, and then compare it to 2006, to see how u want things changed.

and it seems so weird. that i hv been so busy ... doing nothing. i mean, i seemed busy the whole year, but seriously, what hv i accomplished for myself or for others. I think i did make more friends this year, became closer to more ppl, i suppose. and come to think of it, in the previous years, i never did have many close friends. acquaintances yes, friends yes, and i was never hated (i think) but the most i did was to go out with big groups of people - my classes, my cca etc. i never had people or even someone i was really close to, i wld go out with. And i think that's simply cos i hv been controlled all those years, and even in the couple of years that saw the barriers being lifted, i was too busy for my own good. and perhaps i still am, but at the start of this year, the absence of a heavy workload, or rather the choice to not have one allowed me to make time for others. i was a horrible friend, maybe i still am, but i m glad that 2005 hasnt gone to waste - it had gotten me closer to qte a no. of people. =)

2005 was a year that was different from the others, i mus say. i learnt a lot, and maybe changed - a little at least. 2004 was driven by many motivations, of ambitition perhaps - the want to get the A1s, the determination to win everything. 2005 saw this change, and maybe that's cos i saw them as impossible and then i jus began to randomly try out different things, to do things i perhaps hv never done before. random things i remembered from 2005:
- Storyline through both O2 & the prep for 06
- halloween! haha.
- random outbursts of craziness throughout the year ... those were funny, i remembered how there was once i went into the buying over of an island and all for IHC to raise funds haha. and then during o prep the donation shit. and all the dances. haha.
- high energy meetings with the rest of hse comm. haha.
- debate competitions! =) those were fun times. ntus, acjc, ihl. yea. working with everyone of them was fun
- FRIDAY LUNCHES! yea. a good time
- coffee bean, dome & cartel.
- screwing up promos =(
- the random songs that were sung via the phone while i was studying! haha. tt's pretty funny.
- fangyan, fangwtv haha ... thanks to miss yap and miss tan! haha
- and YOU. you reading this. dont worry i wont forget. haha. (ok this sounds so lame)

and then so much more! i dunno. many things hv slipped my mind. and there are definitely so much more that i want to write, and probably wld want to add over the next few days, weeks etc. but not now.

because of wat my dad jus said tt pissed me off. so now i m in an angry mood again. pfffffffft. i hate it when others pretend to noe me better than i noe myself. it is irritating.

ok. tt's all for now. the above can seem so cheesy come to think of it. wtv lah. i m mood-swinging and hv written all the random thoughts tt came to my mind.

junyi! posted at 8:06 pm.