hey hey.

the crazy 2 weeks have ended with drama feste and things will probably go back to normal and i will no longer have an excuse to go home late and not do my tutorials. the past 2 weeks were mad i tell u, and i have been, to say the very least, most snappy, mean and bitchy. and the only time i was nice was cos i was too tired and din want to talk.

many things happened, and i have stated them all in passing mention, so i dont see a point in repeating how great those went - or how badly. from talent-time with special thanks to dnet, nash, ajit, aaron, andrea, leslie, matt, dani and jerry for mt's excellent item to the emceeing stint with aysuria and kwan being the stressed one haha. it was good fun. of course, it wld b highly unlikely for me to forget how we rehearsed only half an hour before the thing began and how ays almost killed herself over her lack of costumes. and how we ended up being in all black.

academic was really bad. never actually got down to doing work. and if i really dont want to screw up my common tests, i guess it really is time for me to take a break from the many things that are happening. at least until i get certain facts right in my head. at least until i m ready to PASS the common tests, and then go on to ace them. m glad the spas for chem & bio came and went. they were ok i suppose, tho putting them in the middle of the crazy crazy things happening jus seem so painful ...

and o btw to those hu gave me stuff on v day haha i m sorry i decided not to get any1 anything this year but thanks anyway. haha. and happy birthday auyong, denise, wang wang, benng and nadjad ... nadjad's bdae was on wed which added to the madness too cos kwan and i decided tt it is time the class does something for people in the class ... instead of perhaps being a class tt only has fun within lessons. like schooltime frens dont u think? so we came out with a series of surprises for him =) with amanda calling all his frens from all over the place in the morning and our class giving him a "vibrator" for his bdae and of course replacing a cake with EIGHTEEN pratas =) well ... it was good fun planning it. so it was all worth it despite the very last minuteness.

but of course the blogging today is more of drama feste i guess. drama feste has been a wonderful experience, to say the least. perhaps i m jus sorry tt i cant hang out as much with the rest of the guys, mostly because i m in a 1-man dept and also because my work lies in front of the computer (mostly) and doesnt call for much interaction. and not to forget parents who expect me home by 7 daily and yet i breach tt rule daily for the past one week. haha but the scoldings were worth it i guess, haha, watching how everything came from nothing, how everyone took this so seriously. i hope everyone loved those programmes ... cos those took TIME to do! and posters, and the board we did. and most of all i hope everyone loved our play to bits and pieces.

well the judges didnt obviously. and the oral summation sucked so we dont noe wat went wrong and y we din get any awards in the first place. but i m glad tt navjote did get something at the same time. this whole idea of a competition - we are all frens, but yet everything has to b fought out and all.

navjote - really did so well this time! all the time u told me tt u have never achieved anything in ur life! well this changes things doesnt it! =) i m surprised that this is actually ur first time cos u obviously did so well this time round ... and i do noe how much this means to u. =) congratulations

mixed feelings really but OBVIOUSLY i loved you're more. OBVIOUSLY i thought tt mt shld have won. everything was lovely about you're. from the posters, the photos, the programs (=p), the artistic direction, the backdrop, the sets and props, the most fantastic and bestest acting i have seen (the judges mus have been blind idiots to not even give special mentions!) and most of all, the PEOPLE. MTDF rocked to bits and pieces. and every moment spent with this bunch of people was every moment well spent.

and so thank u so much ccc for all ur dedication to art, all ur efforts and all ur sacrifices.
thank u to the rest of the gang of 4 - hu went thru shit and stress and worked so damn hard over every single thing but hardly get much recognition after the curtains close.
thank u to the fantastic other gang of four - the wonderful cast with the most amount of chemistry i have ever seen. shumin, samjo, matt & isaac ... for all tt u have given, for u daring to take this on, for being the excellent actors that you are such that i have never EVER grown tired of watching u guys. u guys shld have gotten an award of some sort. pity the judges din agree, but in my hearts and i m sure in the hearts of many others, i m sure they wld agree so =)
to the rest of the crew - george, sookie, zhengyi, snee, tricia, yu hui, nicholas, toffa, daniel, jeannifer, matthias, shaun, sauling, wanqing thanks so much for ur sacrifices for u giving everything ur best and adding to the wonderful production tt the audience sees.

(and it is here tt i wld like to grudgingly thank ms aysuria chang su ya for being tt affable company in drama feste haha and for all her stressing throughout df! - ie for all her hard work, haha)

and to those hu got me flowers haha. i have never actually been involved in productions before so this is like a first time! haha. thanks for those tho i m not sure if tt was for emceeing, for ajit or for the programmes that sat on ur seats.

i hv a feeling loads of ppl dont come here anymore or dont come here anyway, in the first place. yet these r my thoughts i guess, so it doesnt matter.

i stand by wat i said. winning no longer matters to me. wat matters most now is tt we had each other. we had fun. and we took something away from you're and from drama feste 2006.

perhaps this drama feste was made more significant by the fact tt i had to stand in for ajit today cos he fainted in the morning due to overexhaustion - according to the doctor. despite being ugly, and the 16th choice of miss aysuria chang su ya, and being informed just 3 hours before the actual thing and lacking of proper clothes to wear ... i guess i still agreed to do it in the end. i dont think i did well really, but i suppose i din do THAT badly. loads of last minute memorising involved here. and a lot of lost cues. but the show went on. and yep special thanks to co-emcee sinni for the make-up (first time in years i tell u haha the last time i had makeup on was in kindergarden i think)and for being such a good partner in crime ... haha.

drama feste shouldnt b a competition. it is indeed a celebration of the drama culture in raffles junior college and i must say tt all houses r seriously good contenders. m sorry to hear wat happened to hh - zul for all ur hard work u really didnt deserve it, but still - u noe tt we (and esp i) still love u. haha.

the truth is, the past 2 weeks have been a learning experience for me. whether it was doing program or the board - for i have never ever been in charge of publicity before or emcee events like drama feste and talent time and being so much more involved in drama feste than i have ever been, i m glad tt i have tried something new and take something away from all these.

the past few days have not been wasted. it's all about opp cost isnt it. and the opp cost? studying. but lessons i feel taken away from this whole day have been more significant than arenes or multiplier effect. for they might not be less useful.

and i will not look back

but i will. and when i do, they will be filled with memories of what happened in mtdf, and the many things that have happened. and the people.

junyi! posted at 11:56 am.

you're in one day and it seems so surreal i must say.

the past one week has been crazy - filled with loads of work to do, late nights and lack of sleep. Not to forget, the workouts i had to do daily for waking up at 730.

let's make it good. let's put up a good show. I noe ppl feel tt i dont mean it when i say things like this - but seriously, as long as the audience loves what they see and as long as we r loving what we are doing. it's all that matters.

you're a magical experience.

junyi! posted at 11:00 pm.

the stress got into me. and i got so angry too. i jus snapped. hai.

i hope the programme is up to standard. finally finished it. wld chemically castrate any1 hu i see throwing it away.

mt won talent time ytd. tho it created a big hooha apparently and i shant talk too much abt it ... tired.

anw. the past week had been a busy one and i jus hope tt i did a good enough job emceeing for talent time. cant rmbed when the last time i actually emceeed a proper event. tho i mus say no one was there to watch me in the first place so there wasnt much pressure.

happy friendship week. it was busy.

drama feste next week. i better get down to work soon enough.

will blog more later when i feel like. jus felt tt i shldnt neglect this blog too much. haha.

junyi! posted at 12:34 am.

i remembered 2 fridays ago, the same question of "is it cast in stone?" was asked a total of 3 times. and we never got an answer. which is weird really, since IT IS. it already is agreed, and they have wasted our time and have shown in typical singaporean manner that our opinions never ever matter. that running the school like how dumbledore runs hogwarts should be wat the college should be like.

i m talking about the house comm-council merger really. and the latest - yes it is cast in stone, yes the 2 organizations that "share the same aims" and are "constantly fighting with each other for time of the students" are going to merge. i have so much to say about it really, i disagree with so many things. but i dunno, sometimes i think i m wasting my time with things that dont even concern me, that put me in a position such tt people think that i m always so free.

perhaps it is just as well. perhaps i should jus stop creating trouble for myself, thinking that i am all so great, powerful and mighty, that i have to be involved in every single thing that the school is organising. perhaps i shld stop believing that i can make things happen.

because i cant.

because i shld jus concentrate on things that would actually help me get a scholarship, a place in a top university. things that can actually enter my CV, grades that i want to see on my results slip.

_____________________________

i dont even noe y i m writing this. jus ytd S was talking abt how outwardly arrogant ppl have the most self-doubt abt themselves. perhaps it is so. perhaps because nothing i have done has ever been so successful. perhaps because i have been mediocre all my life.

_____________________________

Just another random ranting session. ytd was spent adjudicating the national sec sch debates. still cant believe was made chief ... it was a good experience i guess, good memories and all but i gave HORRIBLE debriefs i tell u. and ggxx lah tt team tt cried after tt. make me feel bad.

chap goh meh 2ml. marks the end of cny

junyi! posted at 8:34 pm.

ggxx

i m in such a mess right now. there is so much work to do, i have overrated myself and taken on too much stuff.

my work's in a mess, nothing seems to be going right.

i think i need to reprioritise loads of stuff.

sigh.

junyi! posted at 10:04 pm.