For the benefit of the one person who has finished mugging EVERYTHING and is put off by long emails (henceforth presumably blogs), I shall highlight the key points in this entry.

i feel rather tired n kinda burnt but feeling bored. Not really feeling lyke studying. Sick of it actually. Sigh.

Not many ppl r online too. So I cant talk to anyone! Anw. I shall go offline soon lah. Guess I really need to study =(

Spent 2 hrs + today trying to settle the ihg invitations – such a waste of time really – more than 20 emails rejected automatically coz the inbox is full or something. And I believe that another 50% would probably have the invitation in their junk mail. Guess part of decorum means I still got to do it. And y do ppl hv such weird emails such that u cant match it to their names?

I figured there’s no way I wld finish chem.. but it cld b possible to finish bio. Econs was terrible. Shant talk about it. The only good thing that came out of the whole thing is tt I completed a paper. Which means jus 3 more papers left. =) Haha.

All I hv to say abt econs is tt if anything –I wld not b a financial consultant cos I give bad (or rather a lack of) advice to my clients. But yet again, the situation does not really stand given financial consultants are given substantially more time to decide on the kind of advice to give! And definitely not 5-10 mins.

I never understood the rationale of giving us so little time to complete our tests / exam papers. and I probably never would.

O yes, thanks zul for the mug =)

junyi! posted at 8:58 pm.

my computer still isnt functioning well enough. somehow, it has gotten from bad to worse - i now cant sign into msn windows or 7.0, cant get into gmail - among many other things. blogging is one of the few things i can do.

But maybe it isnt so bad after all. it means tt i can concentrate on my studies w/o the distractions of msn probably. the only solution i can think of rite now is to reformat this entire damn comp. So until then, u mite see very little of me online - which can b both fortunate or unfortunate. haha.

o wells. this comp is giving me enough problems as it is. i shant bother abt it until even later today or even 2ml.

I downloaded another sofwate and its diagnostic report says tt i hv 189 invalid registry paths, 128 invalid shell link 'shortcuts' and 1 severe missing ini file reference. Here's the catch - i gotta pay some 30 US dollars to fix the problem. i dunno. i think it's easier to juz reformat the entire thing. i havent done anything to this laptop since my dad bought it 3 yrs back. so yea.

now to off this damn thing and get on wif cell bio. :S

junyi! posted at 3:17 pm.

i m seriously kinda peeved that my i.e. has kinda screwed up. i think it is some spyware rubbish resulting in some page tt says i face privacy vulnerability and all that rubbish. that all my actions on the net are being detected.

SO IF THIS BLOGGING IS BEING DETECTED TOO ... THEN LEMME TELL U ... MR SMARTYPANTS TT I M IRRITATED, PEEVED, VEXED, IRED AND OUTRAGED BY U SCREWING UP MY HOMEPAGE SO PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY... THAT TOGETHER WITH A SUPPOSED INVASION OF MY PRIVACY. AND SINCE I DONT HAVE A CREDIT CARD I WONT HAVE CASH TO BUT YOUR WTV EVIDENCE ELIMINATOR PRODUCT ANYWAY! THANK YOU.

Screw it. I wasted my entire morning rying to fix the problem - with spyware doctor, adaware, registry maintainence and what not - but to poor effect. And wat's more tt means i wasted time - time meant for studying ... if u noe how to fix the prob ... u cld tell me ... i wont mind. and wld appreciate it.

Screw it. I hv changed my web browser as a result n shall reformat my comp soon. This is so ... IRKSOME.

I shall try to factor in some studying in the next couple of hours. to hell with this 'invasion of privacy'. Grrrr.

junyi! posted at 2:22 pm.

i hv finally finished the chapter on chemical bonding. time left to common tests is lyke so little. but m doing all i can to ensure tt at least i do noe enough at least to pass ...

it's past midnight ... i guess the coming morning would b another new morning ... probably another routine day ... a certain somebody has inspired me to mug cell bio 2ml ... haha and we r supposed to come online to check our progress after studying. haha. and i m getting a morning call at the unearthly hour of nine. nvm. not tt i m complaining at all. can only do me good. these weird little things tt we do and the random chats online after 11 or so can sooooo lighten up the mood ... the tensed mood of fear that we have ... fear of failing, fear of screwing up. You know, it really is funny when we learn in all the lifeskills lessons, civics lessons abt not being afraid to fail? yet, it is this very motivation - the fear to fail and the want within us to do well that pushes us to actually bother abt studying.

sometimes i wonder y ppl r all studying. this definitely isnt an exam, much less a major one ... and this is actually one of the few times i c ppl bothering. and peer pressure works - to an extent. at least most ppl i noe hv started studying. maybe i m mixing wif the wrong crowd. haha.

alrite. i hv finally understood how meagre my monthly allowance is. but i hv managed to get by. so i guess it isnt too bad - tho i m qte sure it's less than wat a minister earns in an hour. haha.

a really random entry. juz feeling bored and tired after the whole topic on chem bonding. allowing for my brain to digest all the info first...

junyi! posted at 12:43 am.

there's really nothing much to blog about.

with a week left, there's no longer a 'if i dont study, i wld screw up common tests' coz whether i study or not i wld fail common tests. it's juz a matter of how badly i screw it up. so yea, u cld say tt i still wld study. coz i definitely dont want scores lyke DDFF ... though it cld definitely be a POSSIBILITY. sigh.

i m screwed, i m dead. juz regret the fact tt i wasted 2 and a half weeks doing absolutely nothing. if i ever scrape thru these common tests ... erm i promise i wld study hard in the next holidays?

nothing much coming or has happened. i think the debates party at ri (which i THINK i m invited for) wld b some time next week. meanwhile, it's good tt the no. of meetings i hv in rj has been reduced to lyke 1 ... hopefully no more coming up. tho there is trg.

as evidence of my crankiness, i left my zen on (forgetfully) in my bag when i came home 2 days back. and when i went back to my room to get some work done i tot i heard music and tot there ought to b something wrong wif me, tt i was hearing things. obviously it came from the zen, which was amazingly rather loud - and i only found tt out lyke 1/2 hr later - to my relief. haha. on 2nd thoughts, i cld hv juz enrolled myself into woodbridge or something and b deemed of unsound mind such tt i m not ready to take common tests.

found some pics of hse chalet, so uploaded a few of the random pics up. coz i really got nothing to talk abt.

And o yes ... here's wishing all daddies a happy daddies day and samjo happy birthday and navjote happy belated birthday. yea.



leslie. thinking he is cute. haha.

junyi! posted at 4:23 pm.

fat penguins ... a 'brilliant' name eh ... by some 'brilliant' person. fat penguins break the ice.

junyi! posted at 4:22 pm.

one of the few games we actually bothered playing

junyi! posted at 4:20 pm.

go ahead and guess which one of the creatures i am. haha.

junyi! posted at 4:19 pm.

ok. a random entry, this is.

anyway. i hv jus finished the whole chapter on cost and production and so i feel happy! ((: haha. ok. dont u ppl go lyke "SO LITTLE?!" and lyke "... o tt's the only chapter i havent covered". coz it is in fact the first proper chapter i covered. but, hey, it's a good start - what with returns to scale, economies of scale etc. I do noe at the same time i m behind time and would almost definitely fail my chem and bio unless some miracles happen. so i hv decided to revise my aim of BBCC to BBDD (in actual fact possibly a CCFF! :O). OK. i m stupid.

M in a cranky mood right now.

Zul jus said "2 years from now, we r no longer rafflesians!" and "and in fact, 1 year from now, we would b studying our asses off". OMG. it really is true. i cant really believe it. 2 yrs from now, we would be wasting our time in NS! can u believe it? - NS! but indeed, time flies. o well - all this, anw, shall be left for another time, another entry. definitely not now when my fate in the common tests seems so ... bleak.

i cant believe i need to go sch at the unearthly hour of 0930 2ml. goodness.

junyi! posted at 9:26 pm.

happy (belated) birthday jonk.
it's a few days b4 the birthday of navjote n samjo, but it's ok. i shall wish them happy birthday first, albeit a few days early :)

went to watch pck-the musical ytd. to the horrors of many many ppl. haha. maybe it wasnt worth the amt tt was paid for the ticket but (1) my dad paid for everything and so i shld juz treat it as a family outing and (2) we ought to support local productions. haha. at least tt was the explanation given by my dad to me. anw. abt the musical. i din think it was good. "it's pck ... how good can it get?" - a person. haha. indeed. i tot the songs were qte ok. some of the artistes cant sing at all but at least some can. the script sucked big time. the plot was weak and the storyline ... sounded like some rip-off by some amatuerish orientation storyline. in other words, the script was bad. like i hv said. o well. the songs drew lots of laughs but were extremely irrelevant, with no help to the plot development ... and the people who drew the most laughs, i felt were not pck or rosie but ppl lyke sheikh haikel and tan kheng hua ... o well. all in all, it din exactly live up to all the hype created.

i m kinda screwed for common test, but i think (and at least hope) tt i m making SOME progress. the no. of meetings i hv this week is qte crazy. and coupled with the humongous lot of overdue presents to buy. i cant imagine. but at the end of it all, -i think- i wld survive.

interhse games seems interesting enough. ought to b something to look forward to ... in 4 -5 weeks time?

junyi! posted at 10:33 pm.

hello. M back after a 24-hr camp without any sleep at all. Came home and immediately KOed when i lied down on my bed and then slept for 5 hrs before deciding tt it is too hot and got up to get some food.

In all, the camp/chalet was pretty fine. Got to noe a lot of other hse comm members really, really better and i guess this would substantially reduce the potential awkwardness that we might have otherwise. The only regret is that many ppl failed to turn up - it's like about 40% - 50% turn-up>? yea. it could have been more fun if every1 stayed the entire duration (which means less space in the chalet - which neednt matter since no one slept anyway ... at least almost everyone did not sleep).

We got to know the j2s better too, i think, who gave us some advice and planned the entire thing. the games were so-so, for they did act as a platform for us to break the ice among ourselves and interact with each other. Yet again - maybe they were not so necessary after all, for we continued talking and had loads of inter-hse bonding even without the games.

Am i making any sense here? Hmmmm... did i remind u that i din sleep the previous night?
haha

o well. went to watch mr & mrs smith at midnight. how exciting. haha. it's qte cool as it is. some fight scenes were really nice to watch (esp tt betw erm, mr and mrs smith) while some looked excessively cheesy and looked -choreographed-. fine. they r indeed after all. angelina jolie looked pretty hot in the movie. and to an extent the movie was pretty funny too. well. at least the start and the end was quite funny.

o yes. i learnt (albeit still rather unsuccessfully) how to cycle during the chalet. zul was trying to teach me but i somehow still cant balance. i shall blame it on my deprived childhood. But one day, learn (successfully), i shall.

i realise i m not making much sense so i shall juz stop typing and possibly go back to sleep.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

junyi! posted at 5:54 pm.

going away for hse chalet at coasta sands from friday to saturday.

Try not to miss me too much ... it's only 48 hrs or so! ((:
[gosh. SOMEONE's bigheadedness is really really influencing me!]

junyi! posted at 12:08 am.

my holidays can be summed up like this:
- online chatting (excessive)
- meetings (regular - about twice a week ==> Mostly on house stuff ... which is exciting ((:)
- study (irregular & very few ... like 10 mins a day)
- reading (when i really have nothing to do)
- work - hse stuff, inter hse games, pw
- and of course ... blogging

boring.

somehow i find myself reading a lot these holidays ... and reading is supposedly good for us. Jus found myself at the plaza singapura's times bookshop for 2 hours and conveniently losing the 2 hours juz lyke tt (esp since i intended to start on pw tonight). books r good. they r interesting ... supposedly being able to improve one's english. it's unfortunate really that i have been reading so much fiction ... if only campbell, ramsden and sloman seem half as interesting to me. I would be able to ace my a levels, promos, common tests. etc. i digress. in essence, reading's made me lose loads of time. but it's the temptation. grrrrr.

which reminds me. our pw is screwed. totally screwed. probably juz like the rest of the j1s in singapore ... but tt's merely wat the j1s are saying. and at the end of the day, u c beautiful products coming out. maybe tt's the beauty of us being rj students. we thrive on last minute work. haha. i cant believe i m so optimistic here.

sat was rather bz in a sense. we sat thru a meeting that lasted approximately 6 hours ... of course not every1 did ... but still. it was fun coming out wif all the stuff for the rest of the yr. really good stuff. n i m glad tt the entire comm is one really cool (forget the whole theory tt cool ppl r uninteresting ... ms somebody. in this case, it's an exception) group of people who totally respect each other's opinions, work hard, are highly-motivated and all in all, work well as a team. yea. so i look forward to all that's in place for the rest of the year ... ok. maybe except for all the tests, promos and more studying.

i noe this is a sudden way to end an entry but ...

incendio inflammarae :)

junyi! posted at 10:38 pm.

I am feeling bored and jobless and can somehow find no motivation to study for the impending common tests ever since I returned from ccal camp – not that I bothered to before I went for the ccal camp. All I am saying is that in terms of preparation for CTs, nothing has changed – i.e. I am sooooooooooo not prepared for it.

Seeing a sudden increase in the number of people actually the updating their blogs recently have somehow "inspired" me to blog. So blog, I shall.

I tried studying for CTs - starting first with economics, but couldn’t concentrate (duh ... think econs, think Jeanne lim - how?) so I ended up chatting online on the first night (ie wed-the day I promised to start studying) and then playing brainless online games when not many ppl were online in the day. So as you can see, it has been extremely unproductive – given also that we wasted half a day in school when the econs lesson wasn't at the very least different from the normal tutorials that we had (hidden meaning here intended, in case you din realize)

Had mtg for inter-hse games today. Inter hse games wld b good stuff I think. The problem remains in the meager sum of money that the school has given us. A THOUSAND BUCKS FOR A YEAR EVENT! CAN U BELIEVE IT… yea. But I m sure it wld b fun. haha.

So yea. Nothing accomplished. So nothing much to blog about. So I shall attempt the "reflections" kind of entry today. Haha.

- in deep thought -

O yes. Just a couple of days back, navjote said to me that he would give anything to get back the "old ri days". Which I wouldn't mind actually. Where I had fun. Where I spent the best few years of my life - especially my sec 4 year. Be it Moor house, debates or my sec 2 n 4 classes, I had fun, and I never felt happier. (I never write about npcc you realize, haha. It has always been interesting to check out people's expressions when they find this out).

Fast forward slightly more than half a year since I graduated from ri. Times have changed. People have changed. The situation has changed. Things often aren't a bed of roses ... you realize that even more in jc life. Somehow competition has increased and the level of difficulty in your academic subjects has also increased. Yet, at the same time, you know more people - which can never, in my opinion, be a bad thing; you learn more; you see more. We got to move forward, I guess. Yes, we want the old ri days back. But then we would not see what lies in store for us in the future.

I sometimes wonder if I have made the right choice in coming to rjc. Would things have been better if I was in another jc?

Maybe, things have not changed - I have changed. Have I gone overboard in certain things that I have done?

But I look at all that is happening - the company found in rjc, the bonds have strengthened, the things that have happened to me etc. Maybe things aren’t so bad after all.

We are not supposed to know when we peak. It might have been in school, at work or on our wedding days, but we soldier on by fooling ourselves that the best is still ahead. Sometimes, even though we know in our hearts that our greatest success will always lie in our past, there's still a part of our brain that hopes that we one day will achieve such great things that we would be even more successful than before.

We still got more than a year to prove ourselves. To make our stay in rjc a memorable one, to make us, in our army days or uni days say that we would do anything to get the days in rjc back.
So we soldier on.


moor-tarbet 2005. we would rock on.

junyi! posted at 7:15 pm.