i remembered 2 fridays ago, the same question of "is it cast in stone?" was asked a total of 3 times. and we never got an answer. which is weird really, since IT IS. it already is agreed, and they have wasted our time and have shown in typical singaporean manner that our opinions never ever matter. that running the school like how dumbledore runs hogwarts should be wat the college should be like.

i m talking about the house comm-council merger really. and the latest - yes it is cast in stone, yes the 2 organizations that "share the same aims" and are "constantly fighting with each other for time of the students" are going to merge. i have so much to say about it really, i disagree with so many things. but i dunno, sometimes i think i m wasting my time with things that dont even concern me, that put me in a position such tt people think that i m always so free.

perhaps it is just as well. perhaps i should jus stop creating trouble for myself, thinking that i am all so great, powerful and mighty, that i have to be involved in every single thing that the school is organising. perhaps i shld stop believing that i can make things happen.

because i cant.

because i shld jus concentrate on things that would actually help me get a scholarship, a place in a top university. things that can actually enter my CV, grades that i want to see on my results slip.

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i dont even noe y i m writing this. jus ytd S was talking abt how outwardly arrogant ppl have the most self-doubt abt themselves. perhaps it is so. perhaps because nothing i have done has ever been so successful. perhaps because i have been mediocre all my life.

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Just another random ranting session. ytd was spent adjudicating the national sec sch debates. still cant believe was made chief ... it was a good experience i guess, good memories and all but i gave HORRIBLE debriefs i tell u. and ggxx lah tt team tt cried after tt. make me feel bad.

chap goh meh 2ml. marks the end of cny

junyi! posted at 8:34 pm.