i hate what i did today. i hate my emceeing today. it was horrible, and it was utterly embarrassing. and it is simply cos no one was listening. i dunno lah. no one listens. For the past few times i have tried to emcee - and tt is like 4 consecutive weeks, i have been mediocre or horrible. Totally unentertaining and forgettable.

i dunno. this isnt an important function, but i guess i take my work seriously all the time. emceeing all these while has been interesting. has been fun - thanks to all the co-emcees i have worked with. but sometimes i question the need of my presence. whether having someone else instead would have made any difference.

ok i m sorry i sound so self-centred and m talking jus about myself. argh.

i hate cts. i hate this compelling necessity to hit the books. i hate myself for not having the self discipline to sit down and complete everything tt matters.

i think i m rather off today. cld b o2, cld jus b me. and i dunno y it is so. others seem to b more troubled than me anw.

of the many things i m holding on to, it is good tt perhaps i m letting go one by one.

junyi! posted at 10:35 pm.