i was recently told to read entry on the blog of a friend, which was apparently, in a way, addressed to me, in reference to something i had done a long time ago. and i had initially wanted to reply on his chatbox (whatever you call that thing), but decided to post the reply here instead due to the word limit imposed. it's not that i have loads to say, just that i hate word limits. haha.

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so yes, it wasnt a very recent entry but it i havent been following your blog very closely and hence this explains the not-so-immediate reply on my part. not that you were expecting one (i think) from the way you wrote it, but i thought i owe you one since you took the effort to write a rather long entry about the entire issue.

anyway, you were right in saying that i never understood the true impact of my actions. all along, i have come to believe that everytime i do things like these, people around me would take what i say with a pinch of salt and choose to look at things objectively. and i have never bothered to really think about the repercussions, assuming that everyone would understand that it's a joke and everything would die down after some time. everytime you told me or tried to tell me about the emotional roller-coaster and social suicide you had to go through, i brushed it away or ignored it, choosing to believe that i know better - that you were simply guilt-tripping me and exaggerating the entire situation.

i have come to realise, with the enlightenment of your entry that i was wrong, and people arent as i make them out to be.

on hindsight, you probably werent the only one who was affected by things i said or told people over the years. but those were immature years that i would like to think i have grown out of and drawn lessons from. so thank you - for clearing the air, for the entry, for sharing, letting me learn and above all, remaining a friend over the years.

and to you i offer my sincerest apologies, that i hope arent too late, for starting the whole thing in the first place. peace out.

P.S. N, i didnt really talk about the 'thing' or name you, because i'm not sure if you want to keep the entire thing to your blog only.

junyi! posted at 12:59 am.