Congrats to RJ for their double wins yesterday! The team did really well ytd. Gave really sterling performances and if only those organisers would stop being so anal! TEN SUPPORTERS. REGISTERATION. I think they are dumb really, for if you just ought to be glad that people would want to turn up! In all my years as a debater and a supporter, this has to be the first. Decided too to make the debate interactive and so i created a book-form of tagboard where supporters could comment on the debate. haha. being the usual supporter character that i was, i was -as usual- quite a bitch throughout the entire debate.

Anw, today i learnt an interesting fact about humans girls. Well, actually there're only 2 of them that we are talking about here. But let's just say because i need a favour from one of them, i shall not say anything or divulge any names. haha. But it was indeed -rather- shocking but amusing.

prior to that there was interact installation rehearsals which was quite a bore and thus resulted in me skipping the first part of it to talk and interact with people in the canteen. I have no idea why the school just has to lock every single gate except the common one on an extremely sane saturday. i mean if u say it is for security purposes, then wat u r indeed implying is that the school isn't safe at all on days where the gates are open! o yes, then the whole school has to feel unsafe - except on saturdays. how retarded! i had to walk an extra 10 mins worth of walk - extremely pissifying given i TAKE 10 mins to walk from home to school! O yes. And the interact j1 item - the dance - omg. They ought to come out with something for people like me who have psychomotor problems and am going to screw up all the actions big time.

i think there're ppl out there hu r qte pissed with me already. but nvm. shan't talk about it.

Jus read samjo's blog and found it really thought-provoking. Brought back many memories in a sense. So i will just use some of wat he said over here.

"but we just keep moving on and on and on. we change so easily. we are fickle beings. we flicker too. and one day we will be gone. that day on DH bree said whatever time they have left together, they shld be nice to each other. and yeah i was thinking how true for everyone. how can we even bother to quarrel and all that when what we have is less than a century. maybe lesser. and lesser. and one day we wont even have time to say goodbye to those we want to say goodbye to. and i have already lost the chance to say goodbye to some. i may never meet them again. and yet i was being so bad and saying mean stuff. and its just a huge regret, not being the best and nice and just doing what's right. i lost the chance to. i had it but i didnt use it."

How true it is. And sometimes, I do so hope that I have not said something to somebody or did something to someone. The truth is - at many points of time, i do something or say something before i think. I told myself that I had to be nicer this year, to stop saying mean things to people. But i probably did not. I probably got to make many more friends this year. But somehow, i think i made some enemies too.

"... the feel of jc being so different. so fun. so diverse. so fresh. so...different. now look at where we are. somewhat jaded by school but still loving it, except in a different way. i have abandoned my og ... and now im thinking im just so glad how the class has turned out. faction initiation was a nightmare cuz we didnt know our class. but now we do and those first impressions almost dont count for anything anymore"

Given that there's so little time left. That time has flown, things have changed faster than we would have ever thought. Be it in CCAs, class and there wasn't even house then! The earlier posts in February possibly are kinda evidence that I was not enjoying myself then. But things have changed I must say. Possibly just my perception of things. But sometimes, perception's all that matter. Then if you had told me about the teams and still to help u all at 7 i would have been pissed, ranted or something. But wat's the point right now? Given all the time that's left, you might as well make it worthwhile. for me and for them. it's not like i din enjoy myself anw.

And it's like i have been seeing more and more blogs commenting on their classes -not jus samjo-. And i guess all i can say is that i m just grateful to be in a class like mine. We dont top all your subjects - or any for that matter, but as a class we are fun, we have fun. and sometimes this is all that matters, for i remember wat jasmine chong once said to me - u leave ur school not remembering what you learnt in class but what you did in class - not your trigo assignments and the time you spent with those around you.

I sit there at the debate yesterday and after some time found meridian's 1st speaker somewat familiar and realised that she's from my P sch after all. She was a prefect and I have spoken to her before. But we never did see each other after that. the fact of the matter is - like samjo has mentioned somewhere in his entry, very soon, we stop seeing each other almost everyday. and very soon - whether we like it or not, we lose contact with each other. that's life i guess. Soon, we could very well be just in the memories of each other.

Ajit asked me too yesterday if I feel anything, watching the debate for last year, i was sitting in the first seat, with shang and suhas. He might have said it in jest, but i guess the only thing i felt was that of nostalgia. but memories would always remain as such - memories. sooner or later, everyone of us would stop what we have been doing for a long time. soon they would all stop debating - be an adjudicator, coach or something, but yes. one day they would. and one day we would all start work and one day we would all retire too. when these come, they would be memories too.

I kinda realised i have been typing gibberish the last 10, 15 minutes or so. but nvm. in case u were interested in knowing, 15 ppl failed chem in my class. i should think i'm one of them but that's not confirmed anw. and i got a c for econs. i jus hope i do decently for the other 3 papers.

it's time to get back to the democracy essay i m working on and to reality where next week would be a hectic week - ihg/ihc, match support, ri interhse debates adjudication, hse mtg - and not to forget, school.

junyi! posted at 2:49 pm.