how do i explain that it's not my fault, that it has never been my fault?

have been in a ksaldfj;al mood again. but i guess there's hardly anything i can do about it. that everything is not in my control.

ultimately i m a horrible and lousy person, since it's what people think that matters at the end of the day. since then ppl will jus tell another what he/she thinks and then the other will think the same way and the whole world will think the same way too.

so i shld just distance myself from the world and be a hermit.

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but o well on another note went for basketball girls finals who were absolutely great. judged and worked on u14 which i hope wasnt tt much of a failure. went rugby finals too and i guess it was really a case of very bad luck on their part and i do hope they get over it. it must have been really painful, but they did their best. and that's all that matters i supposed. talking to them, interacting with them, i do qte feel for them as you hear them either trying to put on a very brave facade or choking with emotions.

but that's life.

o and i watched mi3 last fri.

random stuff and all. it hasnt exactly been the most fantastic of weeks. ytd was an ok day and we celebrated jon's bday. then later at night it became dajsklfj so i cldnt really concentrate. days before were either sad days or sian day.

whatever it is, life goes on.

sigh.

junyi! posted at 12:00 pm.