i'm pretty scared.

no more excuses. and i desperately want to do well this time round. if anything, i want to prove to myself that i am not THAT stupid. and so this time round, i really hope i can do better. that i can get the results that i want.

anw the week / term ended with u14 finals. it was a good experience really though frankly speaking i wasnt like ms u hu enjoyed the light-heartedness of the whole thing. thought several stuff wasnt really up to standards. but they were pretty much my fault anw. things jus nv can get perfect for me, so i can only hope that the audience enjoyed the debate, the food and all.

the debate itself was a rather good one, though i thought it was qte obvious at the end of it which team performed better. first time judging finals was rather cool, judging with a lot of rather pro adjudicators. haha. it's like i m the most noob lah. but it was cool and several issues were rightly debated, and it's qte funny how shang and i both shared similar styles for our clothes haha.

and i broke the challege shield =( but it's fine i think the physics of the whole thing is rather screwed cos the front is heavier than the back ... and as the team rightly pointed out, the watching of a shield tumbling down the stairs will b one of the cannot-be-missed moments in the debating circuit of Singapore. haha.

in many ways, j2 just seems so much more different, and i was just keying in the cca records. 3 competitions later, judging 3 competitions too, i dont noe, i feel like everything seems so surreal right from the beginning. how did i even start debating even? i have already told myself that i probably will not stop debating. but sometimes it's not up to me is it?

everything seems to have ended. it is supposed to. and in a sense it has. but then ppl still ask for favours of sorts and it just doesnt stop. it's not that i mind.

it's just that at the end of the 2 years, my biggest regret is that i havent done anything special, anything different from what i normally do - academic related perhaps (not tt i m intellectually able to do them) or go on courses, or seminars or maybe overseas trips. sigh. but now it's over so it's jus regrets now. what can i do abt it.

it's qte funny for us to go pay a visit at the staffroom at 1030 last night and shang and i ended up bumping into ms chen and scaring her cos she decided to sleep in the staffroom for the night. so we started telling her ghost stories. haha.

gp common test was ok. hope i did fine. and yay badminton & hockey both won gold! haha. i wld blog abt our begging of y2k to release us for chem. but i m not in the mood now. so another time!

junyi! posted at 2:46 pm.