It is not easy when we draw flak for something that we have been working hard for, for something that is, clichedly, the fruits of our labour. but for something as intangible as a performance / show, that's the only way one gets his report card, to know what went wrong and ultimately learn from it. so while the rsm coa hasnt been an overwhelming success, as we had hoped it would have been, it was, to say the very least a huge learning experience, something that i appreciate to be given the chance to do in the army. after all, how often is it for a lowly person in the army to be involved in something like this in a huge way, and not you know be a marshaller or waiter or something like that. haha. ah POWER. ok kidding. although i am sure some would assert i am not. ANW, i do get it, the draggy part, the unfunny parts, and the excessive dialogue that failed to involve the audience more. it's always with the benefit of hindsight that gives you the wisdom to learn from such honest (hopefully) feedback that i had the benefit of receiving. so we can only get better!it's good too that the external guests enjoyed themselves quite a bit. from what we heard. although that's not accurate cos guests tend to filter their remarks. but overall, accurate or not, i think the entire team did a great job. (haha although who am i to say this)

there's something in me that enjoy working on these kind of stuff. i guess it's something that adds colour to your life, in school or in the army, and also becomes something that stretches your limit and constantly surprises you. so yes this time round, while it has been rather tiring and time-consuming and at certain times frustrating and exasperating in dealings with people, it was all in all, something that i enjoyed, although i think i am not suppose to publicise this fact because of the warped human psyche that just because you enjoy something, the utility gained from that enjoyment is enough compensation for your time consumed. so NO days off for you or any other incentives whatsoever! haha.

much drama has happened in recent weeks, and let's just say that while at first it was just irritating, it escalated into something pissyfying, then exasperating and frustrating, then disappointing, and even amusing at times. ok escalated isnt exactly the right word to use since i dont see an increase in emotions here, but you get my point. over time, you think a person would know you well enough to not make a judgement of you over something you said, but you're wrong. you think because someone knows you well enough, he would be honest with you, but you're wrong. and you think you know a person well enough to think the best of him, but you're wrong. and then above all, there are those whom you think you know well enough and would know you well enough, but they choose to judge you without hearing both sides of the story. and that is just. disappointing.

in normal circumstances, if a friend were to bitch to me about a similar situation, i would say, go talk to him about him, and it can only strenthen your relationship with a person. but i guess, it's often easier said than done. perhaps from the onset it has always been a misunderstanding, but it could have been due to my faults to. it could just be a passing phase. or it would stay and we would all pretend. ah the pretense always. the facade always.

oh well. watched red cliff today, which is my first movie in a long time. and i thought it was actually quite good. i mean i do get how people are complaining that it shouldnt be broken into 2 parts, and how certain parts are draggy, but the acting was pretty good and the movie was fast paced enough for me. takeshi was quite funny as zhugeliang and ling chiling was like there for the sex and that's about it. haha. ok wait i am supposed to say just the nice stuff. all in all i quite enjoyed it, especially the fighting and war scenes. and i would definitely catch the 2nd instalment. and i dont actually enjoy war shows ok haha. i guess it's just cos i dig all these ancienty ancienty war shows then the ww2 battle kind they enjoy filming, perhaps out of some kind of nationalistic fervour.

more work next week. sucks.

junyi! posted at 11:19 pm.