so this is how it ends.

and perhaps it was not the ending we wanted, we expected, we liked, we deserved.

i don't know. the very last time - perhaps. and it should have been so much better.

so we lost. and i dont noe wat to feel. perhaps a mix of reaction. sad. upset. angry. pissed off. i don't noe. it is one of the things that you thought you had made all the provisions for. one of the things tt u r THAT close to getting. and yet you fail. And i feel everyone deserves so much more than a piece of plastic - and perhaps paper. for the school, for the team, for jon, for the supporters who have been behind us all the way.

i don't like losing. and if you were to ask me, academic year 2005 has not been the best year. I feel that I have never succeeded in anything great. settling always for mediocrity perhaps. but i noe it is not our fault. i noe we did all we could. but sometimes things are just ... nvm.

nevertheless. it was a great experience. it feels good to be back i guess. to debate. and i realise that after such a long time, i still love it. i still enjoy it. perhaps most of the time, we just need a break. and i mus thank shang, chere, suhas, mark and jon for all these experiences. =) and zul, ajit, navjote too for always always being there. sigh.

we might have lost. but this entire journey has been a good one. and thanks all for really making it happen.

o well. so we went to chijmes to enjoy the jazz festival there. the music was really good i guess. jus a bit too loud. food's good too. no complaints. it was a good nite. and of course i met certain ppl there. haha. (i see the person cringing right now and hoping that i wld not write anything so i guess i wld not)

i dunno wat else to write. wat else to say. this last series. it was a memorable one.

junyi! posted at 12:11 am.