3 common tests later, 1 promos later, while people have been accumulating their As like a guy on his lucky day at vegas, i have unfortunately and dismally and pathetically not attained a single A in my 2 yrs in rj. unless u count situps. er and shuttlerun. amazingly something remotely related to napfa that i got as for. PHYSICAL EDUCATION - rather ironic indeed. haha even those i m one of the worse in class. haha.

but if there is anything tt i hv learnt from these experiences, it is i suppose to keep wishing, praying, hoping and working harder. haha and i guess poor grades mean that i m easier to please now. if i get an a in prelim. i will b very pleased indeed. if i get more than Bs for everything. i think i will b on cloud nine. and if i get 4As for As ... aha. that will b a relief. cos that's wat we are working towards arent we?

so yes. tt's the pathetic state of affairs. at this point of time, any A in prelim is going to be my first ever A. there's so little time left, and i m here supposed to be searching gp material on NEPAL.

time in jc seems so short really, academically it has been a horrendous experience, but i guess at the end of the day, we all hope for this happy ending. zong was telling me abt how it was in australia some time back, and lamenting about how outside the comfort zone of the singapore education system, you are now grounded in reality. having to face a real world of no turning back, no 2nd chance. i guess so ... m i ready for the real world after this?

nav jus made an interesting point - looking back at the relationships that you have developed with the people around you when ur time in rj is almost up, when u were in secondary school wld u hv thought u wld end up being good frens with these ppl. qte true. i nv thought i wld b bullied by that PERSON who is always so mean to me. haha.

o well. dont u always think tt things are always much simpler than they seem to u? at many points of time, we feel upset over something ... but it's always because of ourselves isnt it ... because of the barriers we build. and i guess there will be a time for us to clear the mess. ourselves. perception matters a lot.

o well. i dont noe wat i m talking abt alr. i m mixing wat i m talking to ppl abt in msn and wat i m typing here. as usual, i remain confused.

junyi! posted at 10:39 pm.