i really shldnt be blogging. but i m finding some stats to make my gp presentation complete. haha.

roar. i realised i shldnt b putting too much hope on plaque award. after all i may not get it. it is not that easy to get. but as mr s puts it, when you get it, it will be a good thing. Yea, shld not keep my hopes high. after all, when has rj actually given me something tt i applied for, except experiences, except certain lessons, but every single time i tried getting something, i wasnt given - council, s papers, rp3. time and time again, i always thought i was good enough, only to have been disappointed.

welcome to the real world, ladies and gentlemen.

why apply then? why put in the effort? no it's not tt i m uber free, it's not tt i crave the recognition that will rank me as like the top 20 leaders who have fulfilled the Kouzes-Posner Leadership Challenge Model, it is more of a self-fulfilling exercise, to prove to urself tt wat u have been doing the past year+ has not gone unnoticed, that you are on the right track and that you can and shld go on to do such things in the future. I think really it is how you want it to be noted that you have made a difference. and as for the idea of me having lots of time. that is not true - it is abt presenting urself, it is abt taking pride in every single piece of work that you call urs.

meanwhile i suppose i shld jus concentrate on my studies and when everything comes subsequently, perhaps i shld let everything be a pleasant surprise. things work out better that way.

am i making any sense? i dont think i am. but yea i need to study.

junyi! posted at 10:20 pm.